I can't run away from my problems for forever.
I can't keep holding onto him...otherwise I will lose everyone I ever cared for.

I'm so dysfunctional.

I feel that I am beyond hope and help.

No wonder I felt that I didn't deserve him.
I can't expect any man to sit around and wait for me to make up my mind.
Fact of the matter is...I won't let myself fall completely in love.
And that's why my life is soooo fucked up.
When I'm all older and stuff, I wanna get married and make tons of babies.
It's been my dream since I was a little girl.
How can I possibly expect my dreams to come true, if I don't let them?

I'm so scared to make a decision...and then it'll be too late.



And he won't want me.