Thursday, October 15, 2009

Feverish

I don't even know where to start. Umm. I have a fever, but i think it's starting to get a little bit better. I'm really getting tired of my nightmares. Where does my mind come up with such brutality? Honestly! My dreams are more graphic than any scary movie I've seen! Just the other night i had a dream that my body was being taken over by the devil. And I was totally convinced I was going to die. When I woke up I was shaking and sweating, I was too scared to move.

 And...what is it about me? I don't understand why I have like five guys falling all over themselves for me. Sure, I look alright and I'm pretty chill, but let's face the facts here people. I'm loud. EXTREMELY loud. In fact, if I'm typing I SHOULD JUST DO IT IN CAPS ALL THE TIME. THEN YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND HOW FREAKING LOUD I AM. But I'm not going to do that. And not only am I loud, but I have zero motivation, I have super bad anxiety, I'm obnoxious, I'm TOO nice, I cuss, I drink, I smoke..... So why do I have these guys wanting to date me? I'm pretty cool but come on! I'm really not that great, I promise! It just gives me more stress because then I have to worry about being careful and not breaking any one's heart...I tend to steal a guy's heart. Without even meaning to! Then again, when I fall for a guy, I'll fall pretty damn hard.

Okay. So. This is my little sister and I.
She's one of my best friends. She's the funniest person I've ever met. Just thought I'd throw that out there. Ya know?!
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  1. KrippledWarriorOctober 17, 2009 at 4:09 PM

    Thanx. I needed a Becki fix today. Stop being so modest. You are charming. And you can't steal a heart that doesn't want to be stolen. Remain aloof. Mr. Right is out there. So don't settle for Mr. Right Now. You are much too young to settle for only one kind of wine for the rest of your life. Don't pick the sangria until you've had the liebfraumilch. Or maybe you'll like the chanti. But you'll never know if you only have the Boone's Farm or Ripple.

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  2. Natalie RauschNovember 3, 2009 at 4:31 PM

    I freaking love that picture of you and Lizzie!! Oh my goodness, too stinkin' cute. And you know what, soul mates don't exist. I heard it straight out of an apostles mouth. Have you heard Michael Buble's song Haven't Met You Yet? I've decided it's my theme song cuz I have had absolutely no love life for 2 years with absolutely no interests. So if you're worried about never finding someone after the ex, remember your love life is better than mine!! You at least have guys interested. Good grief, I have a puppy! Lol.

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