I don't want to have surgery.

I thought i bruised my tailbone.
Turns out i have an infection on like my lower back area.
The pain in soooooo bad.
My butt, thighs, and back hurt real bad.
And I guess the doctor can either drain the tiny lump, or surgically remove it, whichever one works.
It hurts. :(

I went and saw the movie Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs.
It was cute and really funny, i was surprised with how good it was.
I think i've been cursed.
Ever since I can remember i have been boy crazy. It gets me in trouble.
For cereal! And it doesn't help that all of Kyle's friends are extremely good looking and SINGLE!
I'll never get over the last guy i was with. Never.
So I don't freakin know what to do.
Not that it matters.
I can't do much for a couple weeks except lay on my stomach and take pain pills. haha.
I really wish someone would just show up at my house, give me a hug, tell me that i'm special.
I sure as hell don't feel special.
I feel like a loser today. Meeeeeh!
Don't worry it'll pass.