My job is awful. I sit in the blazing heat of the day, behind a hot grill, giving people stupid freaking hot dogs. I don't like all the sickos and perverts that leer at me all day. Makes me want to shoot my face off so I'm not quite beautiful anymore. Well...I wouldn't do anything that drastic or retarded.
~Underneath this pretty personality, something ugly sleeps.
Anyways. The spending money is pretty nice. I can pay for the phone bill now. I can buy myself a new camera. :) Hopefully tomorrow.
I feel that it will never happen. I'll never find that other person without screwing it up. It'll never work. I should probably just give up now. Become a nun or something. Gotta love me some Jesus! Nah, I'm just feeling a little discouraged. I'm young, blah blah blah. My mom got married when she was 26. I'm six years away from that. So I still got me some time. I just want my dreams so badly. :( You know. The whole gettin hitched, having a family. Being happy for the rest of forever. Like that's even possible. Well, maybe.
TTFN. ♥
~Underneath this pretty personality, something ugly sleeps.
Anyways. The spending money is pretty nice. I can pay for the phone bill now. I can buy myself a new camera. :) Hopefully tomorrow.
I feel that it will never happen. I'll never find that other person without screwing it up. It'll never work. I should probably just give up now. Become a nun or something. Gotta love me some Jesus! Nah, I'm just feeling a little discouraged. I'm young, blah blah blah. My mom got married when she was 26. I'm six years away from that. So I still got me some time. I just want my dreams so badly. :( You know. The whole gettin hitched, having a family. Being happy for the rest of forever. Like that's even possible. Well, maybe.
TTFN. ♥
Congrats on the job. sorry about the pervs that hang out at the hot dog stand. Don't set a time schedule for your dreams. Let them happen.
ReplyDeleteI'm still here, dork.
ReplyDeleteI went to a fireside yesterday and they talked about how young people get discouraged trying to find their "soul mate" and how they just want to give up. But they said that God will answer all our righteous desires if we wait and follow his timing and do our best to serve our life how God wants rather than how we want. They recommended getting lost in serving and loving others they way you want to be loved and served, that way you'll be more prepared for a committed relationship when that comes. And I know you're capable of all that. Just remember that someone out there is probably just as discouraged trying to find you so they can be happy forever too. :)
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