Keeping Secrets

I'd give you my heart.
And I'd let you just hold it.
I'd give you my soul,
but I already sold it.
-Circles, Hollywood Undead

I'm not a secretive person, I bet a lot of you can already tell. I don't tell everyone everything. There are certain things I'm sure my parents would rather not know. There are things my best friend doesn't need to know. There are things I don't blog about mostly because it might bore you to tears.

The secret I am holding, from everyone, is eating away at me.

I can't tell a soul. I don't even write it down in my personal diary for fear that someone might read it. It makes me feel ugly. It makes me feel worthless. I'm so scared of this secret. I carry it with me and it haunts me. I can't forget about it. I can't push it out of my mind. The worst part is, I can't even write it down to relieve some of the pressure. We're out of cheese at my house for comfort food. :( I should stop constantly eating. I should stop working out so much. I should take care of myself. Who wants to come save me?! I'll give you a freaking dollar. Take me far away from here. Give me a vacation.Take me to a place that takes my breath away .Make me laugh. Help me forget. Or at least help me try to forget.