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Showing posts with label survey. Show all posts

Monday, January 31, 2011

I hate being alone...

I really hate spending time with myself.
I really don't like being left alone with my thoughts.
I had a nightmare last night.
I might write a story about it later.




I don't have a bed. I have a couch!



When someone figures out how to fold my underwear, let me know.


I sleep standing up, usually.


More than you know.


Myself. I hate my hair right now. I hate everything right now.


Texting Derek. And crying.


Probably read. <3


Marriage. :(


It has a cool ass bunny on the front and it's blue. :)


I sing Good Charlotte or Regina Spektor.


Oh I talk about them. I am probably a little too open about my feelings.


I shouldn't have said that. It was soooo messed up. I can't believe I said that.


Wonder why I bother waking up.


Nope.


Jerry. :/


Drina: She understands me better than ANYONE.
RobertBFF: He's always there. Always.


Depends on if I'm having nightmares or not.


I don't have myspace. But I'm listening to Leave Me Alone by Tech N9ne right now.


If I'm not careful, yes.


Hell no.


Spring will be here soon. :)


Well I'm usually doing whatever I want, this Wednesday I'm going with Lizzie to...uh....I'm not sure but I got plans with Lizzie!


My soul mate.


I need new shoes.


I don't go shopping, I take pictures instead.


ZOMG THE DI.


It's thick and curly and right now it's a little bitch.


I have no idea.


San Francisco


Not much at all. :)


Uhm. I made popcorn.


:( :( :( :(


I would be happy.


Love, unfortunately.

Friday, January 21, 2011

Because I want to





I feel like I'm 14 most of the time.


No. September 10, 1990, actually.


God.


It's not really blue. It just appears that way.


Stir fry. :)


Cheesy popcorn.


Steak and potatoes, bitch!


Pre-school. Having a crush on Tyler Ryan.


My duggie. She's always my baby girl. :)


Yeeaaaah :/




To save the daylight, silly! (hahaha!)


Joel MADDEN! :D Sexy beast.


Jesus.


Disneyland.


Myself? Hahaha!


The wife.


Cooties. :) Haha.


I don't have a 'type'. I'm fucking crazy.


16 was really great.


of course.


GOD was first. :)


Sour patch.


Night out.


Soulmate. I'm a hopeless romantic, what can I say?


....I had a dream about scented candles last night! And it smelled way good! It was Christmas Roasted Almonds! haha


Boy shorts. :)


Under shirts, yes.


Smith's Marketplace. Then I could visit my daddy. :)


No effing way.


Shit.


Well, it's more of a phrase. When I'm surprised. "SHUT YOUR BUTT!"


Reading it right now, getting almost finished!


no?


Steven.


A walk in the park when it's raining. :)


My soulmate would do just fine, whether or not he was deaf or blind.


Hearts. I can make that shape with my arms!


Not usually.


California.


one of my photography photos.


I know I know I know by Tegan and Sara


None of them. My life is so much more exciting.


Ice cream fight!


Green. :)


there isn't a color that represents me, I'm far too different to have a color.


Hell yes!


I fractured my foot in three places when I fell down a tunnel.


I'm sure it's happened.


Honest/poor. But damn, it is hard. The honest part. Being poor isn't hard at all!


Uuuh, calamari. Click it to watch the video lol


I'm not sure.


Nerds ice cream!


THE GENIE. Click it.


Photography.


Popcorn or cotton candy.


Pretty long time I guess!


Boggle!


A Dog Called Kitty


No. I can't even drive.


No. A nerd. There's a difference.


The Little Mermaid.


No! What kind of a question is that?!


Surprisingly, a lot of people.


THE LITTLE MERMAID.


....buzz lightyear doll.


Um. Food? lol


Nope. Not at all.


Maybe when I was like 5.


Tyler Ryan in preschool.


Ugh. Josh. Click it.


Sometimes.


16-17. Rehab.


ewwy no!


Yuss!


not HAVE to do, but I enjoy walking my baby girl. :)


I try not to, but it slips out sometimes.


Probably CRIMINAL MINDS. haha


I don't even know.


It's hard to say. I have a hard time feeling love from others because I don't even love myself.


How fucking stupid I am.


1. Live happily ever after with my soul mate.
2. Find a job I actually love.
3. A BLT.


Too many times.


Uhm. No?


Nope.


'Last night I was writing about you, I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you."


"YAH SUNOFA BITCH!" hahahahaha


Drink whiskey and use popcorn as a chaser.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

I don't know if I ever shared this photo with you or not, but...
ugly
This is me and my mom. This was right after I got out of rehab. So I was about 20 pounds heavier, (see the chubby face) and that's my natural hair color. How awful do I look or WHAT?! Just thought I'd share. :)

Anyways. :) You don't have to stick around for the next part. It's just ninety questions. I haven't done one of these in forever and it's one of my guilty pleasures. Baha!



1. What was the highlight of your week?
The State Fair. <3

2. Whose car were you in last?
I was in the car with my mam. :)

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
:( I hate this question.

4. What color shirt are you wearing?
Black and grey.

5. How long is your hair?
Getting pretty fuckin long! :D

6. Are you good looking?
I used to be.

7. Last movie you watched?
Away We Go. It's a super cute chick flick.

8. Who were you with?
By myself, actually. Weird.

9. Last thing you ate?
Teddy Grams. :)

10. Last thing you drank?
Almond Milk.

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
I break my own heart all the time.

12. Who came over last?
Adrianna, I believe. <3
Photobucket
13. Are you happy right now?
Somewhat. Could be better, could be worse.

14. What did you say last?
"Oh my god, I love Ellen." hahaha!

15. Where is your phone?
Right next to me.

16. What color are your eyes?
I don't like them. I don't want to talk about it.

17. Are you left-handed?
No sir!

18. Spell your name without vowels:
Bck. That's fucking pointless.

19. Do you have any pets?
Babbbyyy!!! :D


20. Favorite Vacation?
Capitol Reef.

21. What do you dislike currently?
My face. And how it seems I can't trust anyone.

22. What are you listening to?
Sum 41

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
He knows.

24. What is your favorite scent?
the car wash or hospitals.

25. Who makes you happiest?
Babbyy! :D

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Trying to sleep.

27. When is your birthday?
Sep. 10th. :) I'm 20 years old now, bitches!

28. Who has the same phone as you?
Kelli

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
It's been years, probably.

30. Do you read your horoscope?
Nope.

31. Where was the last place you bought something?
I don't remember.

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
FUCK.

33. Do you bite your nails?
No, i pick at them sometimes though.

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
HAHAHA

35. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
↑↑ See thirty four?

36. Myspace or facebook?
They're both pretty fuckin gay.

37. How fast have you driven a car?
60 mph

38. Have you ever smoked?
Yes.

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
English is bomb. For reals.

40. Do you have Verizon?
Tmobile. Freakin. Sucks.

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
Depends. I've fallen for the emo kid with an eating disoreder, the cocky ass hole jock, the metal head drummer, the guy leaving for the navy, the closet nerd, the scientiest/artist.....yeeeaaahh haha.

42. Do you have any hidden talents?
I wish.

43. Favorite Song?
Don't have a favorite song. But I have a favorite band! Good Charlotte. :)

44. Do you like to sing at all?
I love it even though I'm not that great at it.

45. Dream Job?
Stay at home mommy. :)

46. Where does most of your family live?
Good ol' Utah.

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
I have two sisters and one brother. :)

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Kind of.

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
"Should I wake up yet?.....naaaaaah."

50. Do you drink?
Every now and then.

51. Know any other languages?
Not really.

52. Ever write a coded message?
no?

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
Not really. I took photos, but that was it.

54. Do you have any children?
Nope.

55. Did you take a nap today?
Haha yeah

56. Who has the same birthday as you?
My ex's birthday was the day before mine.

57. Ever met anyone famous before?
Hahahahaha Hilary Duff!

58. Do you want to be famous one day?
Fuck that.

59. Any Pet Peeves?
Hair on the bar of soap, empty cereal boxes, and feet.

60. Are you multitasking right now?
nope

61. Do you like Britany Spears?
I don't know. haha.

62. What is your least favorite chore?
vacuuming.

63. Last place you drove your car?
I don't drive.

64. Ever been out of the country?
No. :( Australia. Want.

65. Where were you born?
Here.

66. Could you handle being in the military?
Hell no! Haha! I couldn't even get yelled at by my teachers at school without crying.

67. What is your average cell phone bill?
Thirty bucks a month. Killer deal. But crappy service.

68. Who are you thinking about right now?
My cousin Bridget. :) <3

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
when I watched Ellen DeGeneres (sp) walk down the cat walk.

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
Probably 17 pairs

71. Are your toes always painted?
Usually.

72. How many piercings do you have?
Three. Two in one ear and one in the other. I miss my monroe pretty badly though.

73. What are you doing today?
Going to kohl's.

74. Have you ever been gambling?
No.

75.
No question? Okay.

76. Do you like rollercoasters?
Effin love em.

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
Been do disneyland. :) Wanna go again!

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
Mad Madam Mim! Or Ariel. :)

79. Last thing you cooked?
Vegetables.

80. Hows the weather?
Gloomy. :(

81. Do you e-mail?
Rarely.

82. Whats the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Dropped it?

83. Last time you were sick?
I feel sick today but I'm just bloated and hurty. :(

84. What states have you lived in?
Utah. Utah. and Utah.

85. Do you wish you could move?
Sometimes. Yes.

87. What is your dream car?
1957 Chevy pick up

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
<3 :(

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
Not telling.

90. Are you happy with your life?
Not really.


Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Yeah, I know I do these too much.

Sorry. I'm just bored.

You


What is your full name:
EW. We're not even going there.

Spell your first name backwards:
ikceb

Date of birth:
Sep. 10

Nicknames:
Becki, Beeky, Beeky Weeky, Bexter, Rebecki, Bam Bam, Silly Girl, Duckie.

Occupation:
Full-time Dreamer

Age:
19

Pets:
Oh lord. I have four dogs.

Piercings:
I miss my monroe. :(

Tattoos:
A small umbrella on my back.

What are you listening to:
Rage Against the Machine!

How do you Feel:
I feel like crawling back into my bed.

What are you Eating or drinking:
I love eating babies.
And I love drinking whiskey.

Love

Have you ever been in love:
Sure have!

How many people have you said I LOVE YOU to:
not including friends? Hmmmm....6.

How many people have you had sex with:
Gettin a lil personal aren't we?

How many people have you kissed:
Like I could keep track!

Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex:
Yep, sure have.

How many people have you dated:
Four.

What do you look for in a guy or girl:
If they don't look like Keanu Reeves I keep walking.
TOTALLY KIDDING. lol haha.
I guess it depends!

Whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex:
Whether or not they're smiling.

What type of guy or girl do you usually go for:
I don't have a type I usually go for, I've dated all kinds of guys.

Do you have a crush right now:
Yes.

If so who is it:
I'm not telling! BWAHAHAHA!

Do you believe in love at first sight:
Oh of course. I'm like a little girl who believes in fairy tales.

Do you remember your first love:
Josh.

Who is the first person you kissed:
Josh.

Do you believe in fate:
Sometimes I do.

Do you believe in soul mates:
Absolutely.

If so do you believe youll ever find yours:
Haha! The chances of ANYONE finding their soul mate is so small. I doubt it.

Family Stuff

Is your family close:
Fairly close, I would say.

Does your family get together for holidays:
For sure!

Do you have a drunk uncle:
I don't think so....but maybe. I have lots of aunts and uncles.

Any medical problems run through your family:
Nothing way serious. I mean, there's diabetes but I think that's about it.

Does someone in your family wear a toupee:
Nope.

Do you have any nieces or nephews:
Nope.

Has your family ever disowned another member of your family:
Haha I felt like they did when they sent me to rehab. Then I learned that they did it because they were worried about me.

Music Stuff


What song do you swear was written about you or your life:
I know I know I know by Tegan and Sara

Whats the most embarrassing cd you own:
Clay Aiken. Brittany left it at my house, I SWEAR.

Whats the best cd you own:
Haha. NSYNC, no strings attached! lol!

What song do you absolutely hate:
I don't know...a dumb one?

Do you sing in the shower:
Sometimes I do.

What song reminds you of that special someone:
I don't really have 'that special someone'.

Name A Lyric From Any One Of Their Songs...

Pink: "How do I feel this good Sober?"
Aerosmith: Uuuuh I don't know
Madonna: Don't listen to her
Korn: Can't think of one at the moment
Backstreet Boys: Can't think of one at the moment.
The Beatles: "I am the Walrus Koo koo ka chu koo koo ka chu!"
*Nsync: "And no matter what I do I feel the pain...when I'm without you! Bom bom do bom bom!" Okay sorry, I got carried away with that one.
Limp Bizkit: "I got a chainsaw...I'll skin your ass raw."
Stacie Orrico: Who is that?! lol
Creed: Can't think of one.
Britany Spears: "Hit me baby one more time"...that was far too easy.
Good Charlotte: "The Ghost of you is all that I have left, it's all that I have left of you to hold."
Christina Aguilera: "I'm a genie in a bottle, baby gotta rub me the right way honey."
Eminem: "This looks like a job for me, so everybody just follow me."
Kelly Osbourne: Idk
Mandy Moore: Idk
Eve: Who?! lol
Aaliyah: again...who?!
Nelly: idk
Alicia Keys: I don't like her!


Favorites

Color: Green green green!
Food: Babies.
Song: Right now it's 'Happy Ending' by Tech N9ne
Show: Arthur Read!
School subject: English
Band or singer or artist: Led Zeppelin
Animal: Elephant
Outfit: Anything that makes me look like I'm seven years old.
Radio station: Meh. Don't really listen to it that often.
Movie: The Little Mermaid!
Pair of shoes: Ones that fit?
Cartoon: Metalocalypse.
Actor: Keanu Reeves. Just cuz he's hot.
Actress: Don't have one.
Potato chip: One I get to eat.
Drink: Whiskey.
Soda: Dr. Pepper
Holiday: Christmas!
Perfume or cologne: Cucumber Melon
Pizza topping: Mushrooms!
Jello flavor: Red?
Lunch meat: Joey's meat (wink wink) WAS THAT DIRTY OR WHAT?! LOL!
Card Game: Rummy. :)
Video game: Uuuuh. Grand Theft Auto!
Website: Deviantart.com =] Go look at my photography, bitch!
Book: A Dog Called Kitty
Computer game: SIMS!
Number: 9
Cereal: Honey Bunches of Oats
Comedian: Jim Carrey
Dessert: Cookies and Milk fasho!
Disney character: Goofy, probably.
Clothing store: any thrift store.
Past time: making bracelets and blogging.
Candy bar: Twix
Magazine: I don't like them, really.
Thing to do on the weekend: Pretend I don't have emotional problems while I drink them away.
Person to talk to online: Leonard bwahahaha

Your Bedroom or Sleeping Habits

What color are your sheets:
white

What color are your bedroom walls:
white, but you can't see them.

Do you have posters on your wall:
record covers.

If so of what:
ZZ top, Kansas, Chicago, The Police, Led Zeppelin, blink 182, rolling stones, Pat Benetar, Sheena Easton, Eric Clapton, and much more.

Do you have a tv in your bedroom:
Yes, but it only plays movies. But i'm okay with that.

How many pillows are on your bed:
Like 6

What do you normally sleep in:
Whatever I feel like lol

Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom:
Nope

Describe the last nightmare you had:
I had to punch sharks in the face to keep them from eating me.

Do you sleep with stuffed animals:
Two. Arthur my pound puppy and the random teddy bear.

How many people can comfortably sleep comfortably in your bed:
Depends on what makes others comfortable. lol

How many people have slept in your bed at the same time:
2, but we just napped.

Any unusual sleeping positions:
Doggy style. LOL just kiddin!

Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling:
No, but sometimes I share with Sparks, my puppy.

Whats under your bed:
Oh lord. I don't think you wanna know.

This or that

loser or wannabe:
I'm already a wannabe loser. hahaha.

Doughnuts or bagels:
Doughnuts...mmmmm!


Day or night:
Night. Most definitely.

Heaven or hell:
both.

Make love or have sex:
Make love.

Hamburgers or hotdogs:
hamburgers, I'm allergic to hotdogs.

Rap or rock:
rock, all the way.

Britney or Christina:
They're both stupid.

Punk or emo:
Metal!

Spring or fall:
Spring.

Colored pictures or black and white photos:
Colored, but black and white can be good.

Commercials or infomercials:
INFOMERCIALS!

Scary movies or comedies:
Scary. For sure. Then you get to grab onto the cute guy and pretend you're scared! ;)

Bikinis or one piece bathing suits:
Either one.

Sandals or tennis shoes:
Chucks.

Dogs or cats:
Dogs

Unicorns or fairies:
Fairies. :)

Water or land:
land

Colored christmas lights or regular white christmas lights:
Blue!

Cars or trucks:
I don't give a shiiiit.

Austin Powers or James Bond:
James Bond. I've never seen Austin Powers.

Passionate kiss or peck:
passionate, DUH.

WWE wrestling or real wrestling:
UFC.

Back rub or foot massage:
neck rub.

Picture frames or photo albums:
Both!

Pens or pencils:
pens!

What Is Your Opinion Of The Following


Eminem: He's a badass!
Virgins: Wish I was one!
God: He's a badass!
The Osbournes: Eh.
Reality TV: Bleck!
J.Lo: She's cool I guess.
Religion: Is a good thing.
Emo music: Is usually lame.
Valentines Day: Sucks!
Christina Aguileras comeback: She had a comeback!?
Homosexuals: They're people too.
Abortion: Should not be done.
Inter-racial relationships: They're people too.
Murder: Is bullshit.
Death: Scares me.
Obesity: Happens.
Pre-marital sex: Be careful.
Terrorism: Sucks.
Pornography: Eh.
Fortune Tellers: need to get a new day job.
Threesomes: Shouldn't happen.
Prostitution: That's sad.
Politics: BORING!
Country music: Gross.
George W. Bush: Gross.
Cloning: HAHAHA! Oh wow. My dream.
Britneys boobs: Why would I care?
Gas prices in America: I don't care cuz I don't drive. Haha suckers!

What or Who Do You Think Of When You Hear These Names?


Jack: That kid I went to gradeschool with.
Tiffany: Plays the violin.
Ben: Bad memory.
Maria: Family Guy.
Jennifer: My aunt.
Nicole: Lifeline.
Amy: No one.
Adam: Lives a couple blocks away.
Richard: Is Adam's dad!
Arnold: Get to the choppa!
Tom: Tiger!
Melissa: Day!
Charlotte: Hella good charlotte!
Harold: An old man. haha.
John: My uncle
Joel: Good Charlotte's singer.
Vanessa: a girl?
Michelle: Charli's cousin.
Kevin: MR. FAUCETT!
Brent: Brently! Mr. Apple!
Jake: Ew.
Billy: HAHAHA!
Sarah: Miss her.
Natalie: Older sister.
Christy: 'aunt'.
Nick: Roddy?
Linda: Talked to her the other day.
Taylor: North bwahaha.
Jordan: ew, exboyfriend.
Jamie: Is cute.
Adrian: Lives a couple blocks away.

Have You Ever....

Mooned anyone:
I think so.

Been on a diet:
Kinda.

Been to a foreign country:
nope.

Broken a bone:
My foot when I fell down a forty foot tunnel.

Swallowed a tooth or cap or filling:
Nope.

Swear at a teacher:
Just under my breath.

Got in a fight:
Sure.

Dated a teacher:
Ew no.

Laughed so hard you peed your pants:
Hell fuckin yeah!

Thought about killing your enemy:
I don't really have an enemy.

Gone skinny dipping:
I wish!

Dated one of your best friends:
Nope.

Loved someone so much it makes you cry:
Of course.

Deceived somebody close to you:
Yes.

Broken the law:
I got arrested once.

Been to a rodeo:
Yup. It was kewl.

Came close to dying:
2 times in one day!

Cheated on a bf or gf:
Never.

Terrorized a babysitter:
Nope.

Made a mud pie:
yup.

Been so drunk you dont remember your name:
Probably.

Had an eating disorder:
Nope.

Felt like you didnt belong:
Duh. Of course.

Smoked:
yup.

Been arrested:
yup.

Won a bet:
Yeah! I won a soda!

Written a love letter:
Sure have.

Kissed in the rain:
Awh!

Slow danced with someone you love:
<3

Participated in an orgy:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA no.

Asked a friend for relationship advice:
Sure.

Had a friend steal your bf or gf:
Naaah, you can't STEAL my boyfriend. Unless he wants to be stolen. And in that case, he shouldn't even be with me.

Watched the sunset or rise with someone you love:
Sure.

Failed or got held back:
Yes.

Taken ballet or karate lessons:
Ballet

Cut yourself:
Sadly, I was that retarded.

Randomness

Do you believe in aliens:
Sure. Kinda.

Name three things that are next to your computer:
empty coke can, phone, and my bible.

Do you have any hidden talents:
If they are hidden, how do I know about them? lol jk no I don't

Do you wish MTV would play music videos:
I don't watch mtv

If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be:
A chick flick with a hot dude i got to kiss.

Whats the scariest movie youve ever seen:
The Decent

What is the dumbest movie youve ever seen:
Freddie Got Fingered

Do you drive:
No freakin way man!

What is your dream car:
A bumper car

Do you think your good looking:
Sometimes I do

Do others think you are good looking:
Some say.

Would you ever sky dive:
NO!

Do you believe in Bigfoot:
HAHAHA!

Do you believe in God:
Sure do.

Do you believe in Satan:
He probably exists. I don't think about him very often though.

Do you like chocolate:
Yes.

Ever wished on a shooting star:
Yes, I believe in magic.

What is your weakness:
Chips and dip or french fries.

Name something you cant get enough of:
Cuddling. I can never get enough of it.

Describe yourself in 3 adjectives:
Psycho, Crazy, Loving

How many kids do you want to have:
DUDE like TEN!

How do you release stress:
Kill people.

Do you consider yourself a trendy person:
If you consider little kids that can't dress themselves 'trendy', then yes.

Are you an artisitic person:
I like to think so.

Are you a strong willed person:
nope.

What do you believe is your best quality:
My bracelet-making skills!

What is your greatest accomplishment:
Not killing myself so far in life.

Lets say you win the lotto. What do you do with all that money?:
hit every thrift store in town. and then buy my mommy a new house.

Worst feeling in the world?
Depression.

Best feeling in the world:
Happiness.

Is the glass half empty or half full:
As long as there's whiskey in it, I don't give a shit.

What do you think people think of you:
"God, she's obnoxious."

Do you need therapy:
Desperately.

Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance:
I need more.